Monday, 20 July 2026

I am sorry

I know that there are some people occasionally reading these posts of mine... I know that I should/could write something more appealing, interesting, comforting... but actually I can't.

I have spent almost my entire life always giving a caring eye to the others and now that I am old I finally realised that I didn't care about me. Because I was strong and wise enough - so I was taught - that I could easily leave me behind.

It has been some years now that I discovered I don't want to leave me behind! And since then I have been training to put my attention to myself. I still have some difficulties in keeping the focus, but slowly I am learning.

Therefore I am sorry that I write for myself now, without caring whether I am - or I am not - interesting enough for the people happening to come by, but I am sure you can understand my point and forgive me!

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